I don’t understand…

I don’t understand, but… whatever. Yes, whatever makes me happy. Let’s go with that. 🙂


Broken Glass

This morning I woke up in a bad mood. It was the morning of day two of Leslie’s life transforming Genius Bootcamp, facilitated by the amazing Shantel McBride. The previous day had been awesome and I had been congratulating myself on my progress. Then of course I had to come home and journal about an ongoing issue I have which made me recognize all my baggage. I was so down trodden I spent the night sulking and barely slept. However, after the awesome first day I had had, I didn’t want to go to day two in a bad mood so I prayed, “Please help me to have a good day.” It wasn’t at all profound, but it was all I could muster because I was so tired.

I got ready as fast as I could in my muddled state. At about 10 minutes to when the class would start (and I lived 30 minutes out), with my coat on, my bags packed, I decided to grab a glass of water before walking out the door. And just as I was getting to that watery goodness, I hit the glass on the side of the sink and I watched, in dull amazement, as it fell and broke. If I’d been more awake I think I could have held on to it or even have caught it, but I was too tired to process what was happening until it hit the bottom of the sink. I was just about to get really pissed off about the occurrence when I realized something: it was going to be an easy clean up (as it had dropped in the dry side of the sink and thus the breakage was contained and both the glass and the sink were dry and clean), and it was funny. Of course I’d drop and break my glass when I was already late and already ready to head out the door, with my coat on and everything ready to go except this broken glass in the sink! It was just so danged ironic that I laughed! And as I picked up the broken pieces I smiled to myself and my mood brightened.

Who’d have thought a broken glass would make me happy? God only.

A note to my AWESOME readers, but especially you:

This time of year is always super busy for everyone. That’s what makes it so much fun! But it also makes it hard to get everything done you want to, which is why I haven’t had the time to upload everything that I’ve been planning to, yet. But there’s always time to say: I love you!

Hang in there this holiday season! It’s always hectic and crazy but fun! Enjoy it!

Loves, hugs, kisses and delicious hot chocolate!


God is wonderful!

“Adam fell that men might be, and men are that they might have joy.” 2 Ne 2:25

Thanks God for giving me so many rich, beautiful blessings: my family, my friends, lots of work to do, music, painted skies, MOUNTAINS!, fall, the calm of winter, books, poems, science, math, Christmas, delicious food!, video games, computers, technology and plumbing, soccer, and bumps and bruises that gave me perspective and understanding so I could really appreciate all that I have. And thanks for all the people who read, comment, subscribe to, share, and enjoy this crazy blog!

Law of Attraction BS

I don’t know about you, but I’m sick of all the BS flying around at super sonic speeds about how if you just think positive, meditate, and act (though the action part is hard to hear in all the commotion of “just think positive“) then everything in life will be peachy and easy. I’m fed up to my eyeballs with it!

Life isn’t kisses, sweet smelling smores, and cool summer breezes — those things can be found in it. Life is a freaking war. One you better suit up for if you don’t want to end up bruised and broken on the cruel cold floor of your existence.

Life is not easy.

It wasn’t meant to be.

Maybe this isn’t what you want to hear. Good thing you’re reading it then. But I do hope you’re sitting down because I’m going to repeat it: LIFE ISN’T EASY! Anyone who says otherwise is selling something.

But here’s the good news: the stuff that means the most in our lives, that really matters, is really hard. And that is what makes it awesome. That’s what makes it worth it. That’s the stuff of life. And thinking positively, having positive expectations for those good things, and trusting that good things happen, will help draw to you those things you desire. Sometimes it does seem easy when you get it, but sometimes it is very much the opposite and those things we want can take a very painfully long time in arriving if they arrive at all.

That means that there’s going to be times when you’re going to utterly break down because you can’t take one more step, when the only prayer you can pray is “Please be with me today. Just be with me,” and you’re either going to cry or be dried out of tears. That’s okay. It’s okay to feel the way you feel. You can’t have the good with out the bad. The happy without the sad. The dark without the light. The weak without the might. But it is better to pass through these hardships because on the other side is peace of mind and what you truly want.

It’s not easy. You have to stick to your guns. And be willing to fail. It’s hard, but it is worth it.

Stick to it. Dream of it. Fight for it. Enjoy all the good that comes into your life, big and little, including the people that help the good happen. Be grateful. My mom said that as she was growing up her mom would often take them camping. Before they left they always had a prayer and asked for a safe journey. But when they came home, they never gave thanks. Remember to give thanks for the good you receive: before it arrives, as you receive it, and after it comes. And thank God for the bumps and bruises too. The fight is the point after all, just like happiness along the journey.

Which reminds me. There is happiness in life and when you reach that other side you’ll feel the happiness too. It may not be the happiness you dream of — it probably won’t feel like it either; however, it’ll be something much more rewarding like an unexpected plate of cookies on your doorstep. Wonderful, gooey, and yummy.

“And it came to pass that we lived after the manner of happiness.” ~Nephi (2 Ne 5:27)


WEEE!! ;)

WEEE!! ;)

Me and three of my siblings!

It’s amazing how much happier you are — together. 😀